This was such a devastating blow. She had just been doing so well, how could she just be gone…. How could this happen?
Coming home with empty arms and aching hearts was so overwhelming we thought we would drown in the sorrow…
I immediately knew something was wrong…I looked into the assistant’s eyes and she said “I’m Sorry it doesn’t look good.”
Once we got there, our worst nightmare was confirmed. Noah’s heart had stopped and my sweet boy was no longer alive…
Please God, please God… although we already knew:
There was no heartbeat. The UltraSound confirmed it and the world became silent…
Everything started to change once my water was broken. Noah started going into distress. They assured me this could be normal after…
When I first held him, I sobbed and told him how sorry I was. I felt like it was all my fault that he wouldn’t get to grow up…